Photographs

 Currently I like taking photograph ^.^
Not selca yaa~ coz I don't like being narcist. but boleh kali yaa sekali-sekali.. LOL
Here they are:



 I don't know what flower this is... tbut they are so be beautiful when they are blooms all together.  These flowers bloom in my yard. However it wilted fastly.
 Pink strips beautify the whole of the flowers ~~ ^^

 So boring yaa~ had nothing to do... I really hate waiting someone... I was waiting my students... Luckily, I bring a best friend of mine. Yes, book! The only one that makes my life brighter and more knowledgeable. They will not betray me, they protect me instead... with every single magic spell word that created by the author. Savoring a tea cup in the fresh air of the afternoon with novel titled "Second Chance" by Danielle Steel. 

Ied Mubarak all! You know what the way I was taking it? My head was in the ground. I shot, mix the pictures, and edit them ^^
Extreme... too tired and sleeping during the preach. 

 My baby sleep tightly. Persian cat called "Peaknose or Pignose" means flat-nosed. He likes to sleep so for hours... He is sensitive cat, traumatic cat. Might be he got poor treated from the early owner.
I do love him so much... though he frequently poop in random places and I should clean it. Honestly, it's so disgusting but I don't mind because I was the one who decided to bring him on my home.
I learn a lot  from him... he was sick and got what we call the illness,? Uhm, he got many mushrooms in his skin. He faces many troubles in his life but he struggle and still alive now :")
With any attention from the whole of my family he gets stronger day by day... he gain weight and his fur eventually grows..

 Letters from the preceding pupils...
Anin, Ruby, Farah, Afdal... Thanks for every single day that we spent together. It's so memorable and precious moment that cannot be forgotten. They are accept me for who I am... I cannot teach them properly.. cannot play games except they bring cards, monopoly or dvd to watch together...
Sometimes I apply some games but it's not too entertain them, I knew it. However, they like and appreciate it =*]

 Spoiled daughter of my parents.
 My little sister reading novel... cute yaa ~
She takes after me a lot. Likes to exploring word by word in a book.

Strawberry juice mix chocolate milk... Ummm,,, so yummy.

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Let us begin with this quote:

"Sometimes, I'm tired of getting lied to, tired of being used, tired of fake people, tired of everyone judging me, just tired of life"


Recalled the past...
The place where I hate the most.
Somehow I feel so warm there...
So quiet, peaceful, no crowds of students noise

In the first step, cool breeze welcomed me
Sniffed the fresh air
Litters are everywhere...
Straggled...

Stood up in the top of high school building
Stood upright in the edge...
Torn apart the 'try out' result into pieces
And threw them away, flew away with the wind

Walking through the place...
The place where I haven't stepped for such a quite long time
Ended with read my novel and had passed out a bit
Meeting the person who works in administration 

Walked alone, such a loner
The blazing sun shone on me
I had a long journey in the daylight
Released all of the chaotic that weighed on my shoulder

Soul of freedom
Not being depend with others
Being independent and ah... cannot be described
As if flying with two flapped wings

I just afraid my skin turn to tan
Covering my face with a blue handkerchief...
Someone has the red one

I supposed to looked for Coraline novel for my thesis
From one bookshelf to another bookshelf 
Found nothing in the end...
Finally, find this... this what I'd been looking for

The novel entitled Seoul Cindrella
This book impressed me with some quotes
Here they are:
Saat inilah pertama kalinya saya berpikir, ‘teman’ adalah kebutuhan primer manusia. #Seoul
Kita semua butuh dukungan orang lain.  #SeoulCinderella
Apakah kalian termasuk orang yang takut melakukan kesalahan? #Seoul
Orang yang tidak takut melakukan kesalahan, akan cepat sekali mempelajari sesuatu. #Seoul
Kalau kita takut melakukan kesalahan, selamanya kita akan berjalan di tempat. #Seoul
Ah... manusia lebih menarik jika mempunyai rahasia, bukan?


I was so happy, jumping up
As happy as a kiddie given a candy bear and a chocolate bar
Indeed, I wanted this book desperately
Said to myself:
"Kyaaaak! Finally. This is what I've been looking for" like a lunatic person








On the way home,
I stopped in one place, still looked for Coraline book.
When I was walking, someone called my name
I turned around. What crossed in my mind  "How can I meet such a person in this place?"
Oh, she was working there. I think I shouldn't have had such a thought above.
She told me the way a place where I could pray. Feel so blessed.
Allah has his own way, why I met her?
God, why does this earth is so narrow?
She said, "Rajin banget sendirian nyari buku" 
Still keeping in silent.
She said again, "You're all alone. Where's your boyfriend?"
I'm sorry, Can I TROLL AT YOUR FACE?
Do you think I need such a THING?
Gave her a smile, exactly a bitter smile, cooly face.

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Ngga sia-sia. Itulah satu hal setelah membaca habis Seoul Cinderella.
Alurnya ringan dan mudah di mengerti tapi pembaca merasa kehangatan dan pelajaran yang cukup dalam dari si penulis.

I find some quotes:

"Aku memang menyayangimu, Nia, seperti anakku sendiri. Tapi... kau bukan, ya kan? Manusia itu egois, Nia. Aku egois. Jadi, aku lebih sayang pada diriku sendiri. Itulah sebabnya."

 "Nia pasti tidak baik-baik saja. Dibuang itu menyakitkan. Menerima kenyataan bahwa tak ada yang menyayangi, itu lebih menyakitkan. Ia pernah mengalaminya. Dan tidak enak rasanya mengalami hal itu sendirian."

"Ia sudah lelah. Pembicaraan ini membuatya lelah. Ia butuh Hyun Jun untuk mendukungnya. Ia tidak tahu kenapa tetapi ia memang butuh pria itu untuk mengatakan 'semuanya akan baik-baik saja' atau 'apa yang kau lakukan sudah benar' atau apa saja yang menunjukkan dukungan."

The last two bold quotes are recently often say by my junior in high school,
"apa yang kk lakukan udah benar..." :)
"kk udah ngelakuin hal yang baik tanpa..."

Quotes book: 1Q84 - Haruki Murakami

"That's what the world is, after all: an endless batlle of contrasting memories."

"Once you let yourself grow close to someone, cutting the ties could be painful."

"I can say that things are going all that well for the moment, but if possible I'd like to make my living by writing. Writing - and especially fiction writing - is well suited to my personality, I think."

"There are always far more people in theworld who make things worse, rather than help out."

Words of the Day

Words of the Day

"...What really knocks me out is a book that, when you're all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it."  

-Holden Caulfield (The Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger) 

"I never knew books could do that, take me away from this place, make me forget for a little while." - Beast (Beauty and The Beast). 

Younha - Suki Nanda

was surfing through youtube, found this cutie song :)
she's korean yet her voice really fit in japanese song...


Translations:

For some reason I could never show you how I feel
And I upset you with words I didn't even mean
But you were still here today, same as always, smiling tenderly

Every time we fought
I thought "Why don't you just leave?"
But you still didn't give up on me, you tried to understand
Never let me go, even though I'm so selfish

The reason why I called you and said I wanted to see you right away
Even though the trains had stopped for the night
Was because I wanted to test you
There are things that I can't say

Never let me go
No matter where in the world I am
Find me and hold me, darling
I can never let my guard down
So I'm a little embarrassed to say this
I can't say it a lot
But I love you

Just your being with me
Makes me happier
The days haven't changed
But the scenery looks completely different
My heart is filled with contentment
I find myself smiling naturally

Looking back on the days we've spent
Just, just, thank you
There have been times when I was uncertain
But I have a feeling that it's got to be you

Never let me go
Even though my mannerisms aren't cute at all
And all I do is hurt you
I can never let my guard down
So I'm a little embarrassed to say this
I can't say it a lot
But I love you

Will you go on
Loving me like this
Forever?
I want to be sure
If I get anxious
Again
Will you keep answering again and again?

Never let me go
Even though my mannerisms aren't cute at all
And all I do is hurt you
I can never let my guard down
So I'm a little embarrassed to say this
I can't say it a lot
But I love you

I'll never let you go
When I'm alone I burst into tears
Because I want you to hold me and smile
I'm not strong
So don't leave me alone
I can't say it a lot
But I love you

I suddenly realised that for some reason
It feels so good to be by your side
I hope you'll still stay with me
Even though I'm like this

Jae in lonesome

I used to think that the sky and earth were near each other. So I used to think that, no matter where I was, the people within my heart were never that far from me because we were living under the same sky and walking on the same earth. I wasn’t even lonely. For the first time, for some odd reason, I find myself feeling lonesome, as if I am watching my shadow getting uncontrollably farther away from me with the setting sun. World, tell me that it isn’t true. But because there is the light of the singing sun, I tell myself over and over again, “I’m okay. I’m okay.” Though I can’t see it, I can hear it. And I can feel it. We understand and love each other. 
- Kim Jaejoong

(Source: dbskafied)

XIA (Junsu) – UNCOMMITTED

She said I couldn’t be committed
She said I’m too much of a player
Come on

Uncommitted
Uncommitted
Uncommitted
Ey, ey

It was all a dream
Reality was far from
the safe picture she painted for me
She told me I was the one and I believed
until the dream dissipated so suddenly

I don’t know why she was so compelled to leave
Something was messin’ with her psychology
I’m confused, she’s sayin’ something’s wrong with me,
But how can I fix something I cannot see?

She said, “You’re not ready
Baby, you’re not ready for the real thing”
She told me that I’d be
unfaithful and I cannot believe

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I don’t really get it
She said you’re not the right type
only good for one night,
you never stay committed to me

How could this be, she’s telling me
I will never let her be my everything
She said I’m a player and I’ll never change
I feel that I’m ready to leave the game.

She said she could’ve never trusted a player like me
but baby that was part of my history
she’s telling me breaking hearts is a part of me
it’s like it’s in my system and it would never leave

She said, “You’re not ready
Baby, you’re not ready for the real thing”
She told me that I’d be
unfaithful and I cannot believe

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I don’t really get it
She said you’re not the right type
only good for one night,
you never stay committed to me

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I don’t really get it
She said you’re not the right type
only good for one night,
you never stay committed to me

I’m committed

Uncommitted, I’ll never admit it
and then i’ll never get it but somehow she could be right
Uncommitted, I’ll never admit it
and then i’ll never get it but somehow she could be right

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I don’t really get it
She said you’re not the right type
only good for one night,
you never stay committed to me

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I don’t really get it
She said you’re not the right type
only good for one night,
you never stay committed to me

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